Believe. Have Patience. Keep the Faith
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
10:26 AM

Judgmental:
1. Of, relating to, or dependent on judgment: a judgmental error.
2. Inclined to make judgments, especially moral or personal ones: a marriage counselor who tries not to be judgmental.

Some people are being so judgmental about certain things
which they think they are certain about but actually they are not.
Who are they trying to joke here?
Yourself? He? She? They?

Well definitely not me.

Look, dont be so sure about things that you only see on the surface.
You're judging and assuming too quickly.
No wonder you cant be a detective or a scientist.
Coz detectives investigate their case & scientists do their research
before coming to a conclusion.
You're otherwise.
So neither can you be a good judge. Heh.

The best part is you tell a number of people.
But I'm having the last laugh here.
You made me LOL ROFL!
Sarcastic?
Hey, that's me.

Excuse me.
Monday, June 29, 2009
9:57 AM

There's a difference between how long, how well and how much
you know a person.

The duration of knowing a person does not define
how well or how much you know them.
You can know someone not long to know he/she well enough.
Still, knowing a person well does not define how much you know them either.
Well personally, how well and how much you know a person
has its difference.
Agree? Yes? No?
You decide.

I think you both need a dictionary.
Good news: Yeah you both know me quite long and we're still friends.
Bad news: You both dont know me well and much.
Sorry to break the bad news.
Perhaps, you shld clean your rose tinted glasses. (credits to Ms Scarlet)
Heh.

I believe I dont have to explain myself.
Its not worth the effort to explain to people who are
not worth explaining to.

Enough said.

But I'd explain to you..
if you want me to.

Friday, June 26, 2009
10:16 AM
1) People tend to do things for someone else
out of love, care and concern.
They'll always say ' Ok. I wont do it just for you '
or ' Because of you, I wont do it '
or ' I love you and I wont do anything that you dont want me to '
or ' I wont do it coz I dont wanna disappoint you '.

All of the above leads to one thing.
You wont do things that the person dont want you to.
But actually, you feel like doing it.
In fact, you do wanna do it.
and somehow you feel kinda forced not to do it.

2) Then there are the people who told/begged/asked
the other party not to do the silly things.
When your partner/frens/whosoever said they wont do it coz of you,
you'd feel relieved, glad and somehow satisfied.
Coz you dont have to worry bout them and that they listen to you.

All of the above leads to one thing.
They did things for you.
Coz they love you and care for your feelings.
Very much.
And of coz you appreciate them for the effort.

For no. 1.
Yes, indeed it feels great to have done something for someone,
that makes them happy and it makes you happy too.
As for no. 2,
Yes, indeed it feels great too to have made someone listen to you
and made them not to do silly things.
But, both points are missing something here.
And that is doing things for your own self.

3) There are people who do things for themselves.
They dont do it for others.
Reason is they do not want to disappoint others.
And if they do, they'd be disappointing themselves too.

I have done somethings for people before.
But I've learn that its better to do things for yourself.
Ok maybe only certain things.
Coz if the person who you love and care alot hurts you,
you'd feel pissed, sad and annoyed.
And then you tend to do all the silly things,
that initially you wont do because of someone.
At the end of the day you're at the losing point.
Coz you're disappointing yourself without realizing it.

Trust me. I've been through all of it.
I did try to quit puffing last time.
Coz someone wanted me to.
And I did it for that person.
But managed not to only for one day.
And I started back again coz that person made me mad.
When the person found out, I've been puffing,
she got mad and disappointed at me.
That's when I realised that I'm not doing it for myself.
I cant bear disappointing someone else.
So from that day onwards, I'd make sure if I quit,
it'd be for me.

Bottom line.
Learn to do things for yourself.
If you manage to, you'd feel proud of yourself.
The feeling of self-achievement is indescribable.

Thank you.
I'm proud of you.

Please stop the rain
Thursday, June 25, 2009
10:19 AM
I guess whatever I do or I didn't do,
its gonna hurt you.

It seems every move that I make,
every step that I take,
and every words that I say
its gonna hurt you.

If its gonna be that way,
its better if I don't do anything rite?
The last thing I want is..
for you to shed a tear.

Goodnight Goodnight..
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
10:24 AM
You left me hanging from a thread we once swung from together
I’ve lick my wounds but I can’t ever see them getting better
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same

Her hair was pressed against her face, her eyes were red with anger
Enraged by things unsaid and empty beds and bad behavior
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh

I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of the heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa

The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember
The way it feels to be alive
The day that he first met her
Something’s gotta change
Things cannot stay the same

You make me think of someone wonderful, but I can’t place her
I wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her
Something’s gotta change
It must be rearranged, oh

I’m sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right

So much to love
So much to learn
But I won’t be there to teach you, oh
I know I can be close
But I try my best to reach you

I’m so sorry, I did not mean to hurt my little girl
It's beyond me, I cannot carry the weight of a heavy world
So goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, hope that things work out all right, yeah
Whoa, oh…
Yeah

Go on, girl.
9:45 AM
I'm pissed with myself now.
I really dont get me.

I'm the one who says it all.
Yet, I feel as if I'm the one being set free.
Letting go is hard. Yes it is.
And no I'm not letting you go.
I want you to stay.
Stay with me. Please.

But..
I have to.
And I cant..

This is all because I truly deeply care for you.
One day, I hope you'd understand why.

It hurts me seeing you like this.
It hurts me even more if you leave.

Why do I feel as if I'm going thru a break up?
I'm sorry.

Silent thoughts
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
10:11 AM
When some people are quiet, they may be thinking. Silently.
They may be in their deep thoughts.
Thinking of something they don't want others to know.
Probably, not yet at the moment.

So leave them alone for just a moment.
Let them be in their own world.
Perhaps, they need to sort or figure things out.
And dont ask why they seem quite.
Coz you'd probably wont get to enter into their thoughts.
Just wait till they let you in.

Well another probability is people just tend to be quite
for no reason at all.
They are just quiet. Not thinking.

Yes, I'm the crazy and noisy kind.
Always hyper, making lame and stupid jokes.
But, sometimes I need to be in my own world.
I do think alot and I'm always thinking.
I may not seem that type but I am.
So please understand why I'm suddenly quiet.

Excuse me while I embrace the silent thoughts in my head.

Thank you.

... and thinking about you alot.

Makes one ponder..
Monday, June 22, 2009
1:38 PM
I received an email from my darling.
And it taught me something.

Read on guys:

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?
During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, 'How do I know if I married the right person?
'I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, 'It depends. Is that your husband?'
In all seriousness, she answered 'How do you know?'
Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer. EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit). Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything.
That's why it's called 'falling' in love.. Because it's happening TO YOU. People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept off my feet.' Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.
The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?' And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work,a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later.

Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression 'the labor of love'. Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery.

There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make' love. Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always: 'God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let to walk away, who you let to stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

All I can say is,
Lesson well learnt.
;p

Quotes..
Sunday, June 21, 2009
10:52 PM
" The power of relationship is someone who you care less. But the power isn't happiness. Happiness is someone who you care more. "

.. yet I still find you.

Where is the love?
5:57 PM
" Its not hard to fall in love. Staying in love is. But letting it go is even harder. "

I still cant say those words to you.

Oh, shut up.
Friday, June 19, 2009
11:06 AM
I cant stand people who threaten to kill themselves.
Or attempt to.

You wanna do it?
I'd say you jolly well carry on.
I'm mean and heartless?
I'd say you're stupid and brainless.

And oh same goes to those who cuts/slash their wrists.

Instead of cutting/slashing,
why dont you jump off a high building or
hang yourself in your room.
Or if you're lucky to get a gun, shoot yourself.
That way, it'd be less painful.
You wont have to suffer.

There are some people in the world right now,
trying to fight for their life.
Trying to fight for survival.
And you wanna waste yours for an absurb/ridiculous/nonsensical reason.
Seriously, you gotta learn to appreciate life and
grow up lah please!

I believe the more attention you give them,
the more they'll seek it.
The more you give in to them,
the more weaker they'll get.

So personally, best solution is..
Dare them to do it and shoot them.
Heh.

C'mon, reverse psychology people.

Oh, you shut up.

10:44 AM
I'm fucking pissed right now !

Rescue me, please.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
3:58 PM
I wanna go watch movie alone.
I wanna go walk arnd town alone.
And I wanna kick balls.

That's what I feel like doing NOW!

I just cant stand my job.
I'm dying of boredom.
I cant stand sitting in front of the comp whole day.
Its making my shoulder ache like hell.
Eee! I'm annoyed.

I want dunkin donuts choc pudding.

Ok dah bye.

Rainbow Tree
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
9:47 AM

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end.
Be afraid that it will never begin.

~


B-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l aint it?
How I wish I'm in the picture to witness the
amazingly fantastic beautiful scene.
I dont go crazy over rainbows,
but the picture above is definitely an exception.

Somehow by just looking at it,
it makes me calm and peaceful.

I'm feeling suffocated.

Define
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
10:02 AM
Intimidate

Definition:
1. to make timid; fill with fear.
2. to overawe or cow, as through the force of personality or by superior display of wealth, talent, etc.
3. to force into or deter from some action by inducing fear: to intimidate a voter into staying away from the polls.

Synonyms:
- frighten, subdue, daunt, terrify

" I think you intimidate people "

Do I? Heh.
Well someone does think of me that way.
Kinda funny though actually. Heh.

But for your info,
I see myself on the same level as others.
And I treat people equally yet differently.
Get it? No?
Go figure then.
Heh.

On another note,
somehow at this moment, I need someone to tell me what to do
or wat I shld do and the what nots.
Honestly, I'm kinda at a lost (maybe).
Its like I dont know what to do or think.
Or perhaps, I dont want to think or do anything.
But just listen to someone to tell me what to do.

I think I'm in the mood to listen to someone.
Heh. Whatever lah girl.

I'm near to exploding.

The Climb
Monday, June 15, 2009
11:30 AM
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying,
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Catch me if you can
10:27 AM
Seen that show before?

Well according to someone, I've my own version.
A game its called. Heh.

"You like to play the game, 'Catch me if you can'.
You get scared of people liking you.
And you're not sure how to handle them."

Hmmm. True maybe.
But one thing for sure is I dont like to play games.
I guess I'm afraid.
Afraid to get hurt.
Coz yes, I've been hurt damn badly before in a relationship.
The bad experience I had in the past taught me to be careful.
Careful not to fall deep.

That's why I'm afraid to fall deep for someone.
Coz when I do fall, I'd be committed to that person.
And when I'm committed, I dont fall out easily.
Perhaps, 'I'm scared of me liking someone and
not sure how to handle it myself.'

It looks as if I'm running away from reality.
Maybe I am.
Or just maybe I dont wish to face all the negativity.
Like I cant be bothered to.

Oh well.

I'm tired.

Self-pleasure or Selfish?
Friday, June 12, 2009
11:16 AM
Have you done something selfish?
Just do what you feel like to.
And not think of anything else.
Or anyone in fact.

Well I had.

Yeah people will say think of yourself before others.
But what if its something bad.
Won't you feel disgusted of yourself.
Coz you know that's not you.
I'm sure you'd feel guilty and you may regret.
But you still do it.
Why?

Does this means you've discovered another side of you?
Or just being selfish for a moment.
To cater to your self-pleasure.

I know that's not me.
Coz I think of others before self.

Maybe just maybe, you're tired of thinking for others.
As somehow it hurts you when you do that.
So at one point, you just want to do things for yourself.
Without wanting to think of the consequences.

Oh well.
Things happen. For a reason.
And it already happened.
Right Ms Scarlet? Heh.

She's Back
Thursday, June 11, 2009
12:04 PM
Look who's back.. ;p

Do wait for my official post.

Take care.
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